Wow..i really havent written in here for a long time.  I used to be such a xanga junky..and now i'm a myspace junky..hahaha.  Geeze..if it isnt one thing..its another.  Oh well..so..a lot has happened since i last wrote..December 5th? Hahaha..dude..its been like 3 months.  Well finals have come and gone..which was not a happy time.  All of MmK-TpA have officially turned 17..yup..all of us had our birthdays already..Happy Birthday to us!! Kristine's birthday also passed..so Happy Birthday to her!! UmMmM..oh..Sweethearts was awesome..dresses..limo.. pictures..dancing..fun!!  Joe and my 2 year anniversary passed..and that was sweet..and all kinds of special.  Oh yea..and we went to Big Bear together..took Joe snowboarding for the first time..it was awesome too.  HmMm..did i miss anything...?  I prolly did miss something..but oh well..lets pretend i didnt. 

So what did i do today...?  Well there was the SAT this morning..and lets just say..i didnt quite prepare like some other people did..which i still feel guilty for even though the test is over.  UgGhHh..lets not talk about that anymore.  So that ended kinda later than i expected..so i was a little late to work this afternoon..but everything was cool. Basically talked to the crazy people on the fone most of the day.  And now i'm home..chillin like a villian..blogging and DLing music.  Yup..a very chill night for me.  No one is online though..which is making me feel like everyone is out doing something except for me..and that is making me a little bit sad.  No one wants to call me to do anything..!! No one loves me...!! Hahaha..i'm jp..whatever. 

So some upcoming events..the friggin 3rd quarter is coming to an end...damn this year is going by fast..and its been terrible every step of the way!! Hahaha..i'm laughing..but its true.  But on a brighter note..Spring Break is also coming..which is pretty cool.  I'm a little sad cuz i wont be spending it here with my friends and my Joe..i'll be in the Philippines..visiting the family.  So i'm happy and a little excited at the same time too.  What else..what else...hmMmM?  Not a whole lot i guess..school is just quickly coming to an end..which is good and bad.  Good cuz...hello..SUMMER!!  Bad..because its leaving me very little time to try and salvage my grades...not that there is much there to salvage..man i'm a big stupid.  Lets not talk about that either..cuz i might cry.

So life had been good..school has been crap.  But i guess thats the way it always is huh...?  Oh well..i'll blog again soon..promise.  I'm not gunna abandon my xanga..cuz i still got xanga love.  Till next time my loved ones...

Just wanted to stop in here with the quickness to put a lil Happy Birthday shout out to my babe!!  Today is his 17th birthday.  Well yea..today is a special day to me because its the day Joe came into this world.  He's one of the most important people in my life..and i dont know what i'd do without him.  He's my best friend..my one love..my world..my everything.  I love my babe so much..and i thank God that he found his way into my life..otherwise..who knows where i would be.  But the one thing i can say for sure is that my life definitly wouldnt have as much love and happiness as it does now.  So Happy 17th Birthday to my babe Joe..i love you.

SoOo..Thanksgiving is like the day after tomorrow.  And lets see..what do i have to be thankful for...?  HmMmM..this is a tough question...wow..is there anything..?

Family..i am irritated with more than life lately.  I just try to avoid them at all costs..because..omg..they are just driving me crazy.  And you would think the people that gave you life would know you a lil better than most..but oh no..thats not true..its like i'm a friggin stranger to them.  Seriously..they know little to nothing about me as a person..its crazy.  I guess thats typical of most teenagers and their parents..but omg..some of the stuff they say to me sometimes..even blows me away..and to be quite honest..it take a lot to shock me. 

School..academically..well thats just shot to hell.  I am a failure in every sense of the word.  I should even be doing hw right now..but what am i doing..i'm writing in this xanga.  Yea..thats right..avoidance of obvious responsibilites.  I hate school with a fucking passion.  I feel lost beyond the point of being saved.  Its like i'm in a boat thats sinking..and all i have to save my ass is a toothpick to row myself to shore. 

My realationship..thats kind of personal...i guess..but to say it plainly..things could be better..probably a lot better.

Friends might be the only thing i am actually thankful for.  I mean..they seem to be the only thing that keeps me going.  Without them i'd prolly go insane...even though i still find myself on the edge of sanity.  They are the only force in my life that continues to pull me away from that edge.  They keep me laughing..smiling..and having fun. 

So maybe i have one thing to be thankful for..my friends.  Good stuff..cuz they're all pretty awesome.  As for everything else..everything else just makes me want to scream!!  The amount of frustration that the other aspects of my life cause me..is almost unbearable.  They get me so tense and stressed out that i wish i could just dig a hole for myself and crawl in it and hide..because dealing with them is way too much work.  I almost just wanna get in some peoples faces and scream at them for making me so angry..and making me stress.  AhHhHhhhH!!!!!!  Now if only that were a real scream..then i might feel better.  Thats the scream that i keep bottled up inside me.  All hell will break loose when that scream finds its way to creep out of me.  Its not going to be a good day. 

Okay i need to finish my reading.  Xanga is a God sent for venting.  Man..its good stuff. I mean..i'm still not happy..but i feel a lil better.  Awesome..well..G'nite...

I would share this little thing with my dear friend Erin..because i believe she is the only one who would truly realize the significance of this moment.  But yea..i cant seem to find my pencil right now..and i'm very sad about this.  I am so stressed out..that the disappearance of my penicl almost makes me wanna cry!  Seriously though..i have no idea where it is.  And i'm sure most of you people..or whoever is reading this..is thinking.."you're stupid..just go get another pencil..!"..and for the most part..you'd be right..i could just get another one..but i just..uGgHh..i'm so frustrated..i just wanna be like.."well..no pencil..no more hw!"..hahaha.  I know that sounds pathetic..but i yea..i cant take it.  Even little..seemingly insignificant loses like this have a dramatic effect on me.  I just want to break down and cry..its crazy..!  Wow..i just sound so emotionally unstable in this blog..hahaha.  Which for the most part..i'm starting to wonder might be true.  =oP  Okay..well i'm not sure what my need to share all this was..cuz its really quite stupid.  I guess its just some healthy venting.  Well i need to do something besides write in here..cuz this is certainly NOT what i should be doing.  I need to find my pencil and get back to work...ErRrrR..i hate school...i just wanna scream..and maybe break something..hahaha..okay..i need to go now.  G'nite world.

No one reads this ish anymore..which is pretty sad..cuz i still like xanga..but now everyone and there mama is on myspace..which i love too.  But yea..i miss xanga..i wish people could find a nice balance and not move all the way to one trend or another..but whatever..its all gravy.  I kinda fell into the trend..cuz i havent written in this in like over a month..hahaha..i'm almost going on two..hehehe.  Well yea..i'm here to change that all.

SoOoOo..there has just been WAY too much going on to even begin to summerize.  For the most part..school.. Knotts.. parties.. clubbing.. friends.. wingstop (hehehe).. spending time with my babe when i get the chance..and yea..thats about it really.  Oh and i went and saw a movie..which i dont do very much anymore..cuz yea..its like 10 bucks at LBTC now..crazy shit.  Been spending a lot of time with some of my favorite ladies..my love Nessa.. Kristine.. Michelle.. Linda.. and Merinelle.

Been having some really fun times on my weekends..but my weeks are hell on earth.  School is kicking my ass in a huge way..i'm very sad.  Soccer season has started now too..so after school practice..games...more stress..yAy..just what i needed..not!  But whatever..i guess theres not much i can do about that.  Certain parts of life are great..others are just sucking so bad.  But lets move onto something brighter...

HmMm..me and Joe are doing awesome..2 year anniversary coming up pretty fast.  But first my babe's birthday..he's gunna be the big one-seven.  He's getting old..hahaha..jp.  But yea..good things with my babe.  I dont get to see him as much as i'd like..cuz yea..soccer after school and everything..but when i do..i cherish the moments.

What else..what else..?  Oh..Thanksgiving is next week and Christmas is coming up too..oh geeze so stressful.  Looking into getting a job for the holidays and stuff.  Yup yup..need the money man!!  But besides the need of money and stress of shopping for gifts..i'm really looking forward to the holidays.  Yea..i just like the Christmas lights..trees..music..just the whole atmosphere of it all..its so comforting.  And dont forget..we get like 2 weeks off of school..hahaha..and if that isnt a priceless gift..then i ono what is. 

Well i think i am done for now..i hope it wont be like 2 months again before i write...but yea..i highly doubt anyone reads this ish anymore anyways.  How sad..xanga was like "the thing" just a matter of like months ago..and now everyone just abandons it.  Oh well..take care my loves...

P.S. If you by some random act of God..happened to read this entry..leave me a comment and let me know..cuz yea..you love me..=oP